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Oct. 22, 2014 - The Eye Opener

The Eye Opener
Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2014

We alcoholics should never claim Justice. It is the one thing in the way of a virtue that we can't use. It would be poison.

It would be found upon examination that had we received justice, we would never have gotten to the door of AA. The warden wouldn't have allowed it. If we are wise, we will confine our conversations to Mercy, for this is something we want and need. But if Justice was ever given us in full measure, we would find it would be something we didn't want.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 22, 2014 - A Day at a Time

A Day at a Time
Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2014

Reflection for the Day
"Not all those who know their minds know their hearts as well," wrote LaRochefoucauld. The Program is of inestimable value for those of us, formerly addicted, who want to know ourselves and who are courageous enough to seek growth through self-examination and self-improvement. If I remain honest, open-minded and willing, The Program will enable me to rid myself of my self-deceptive attitudes and character flaws that for so long prevented me from growing into the kind of person I want to be.

Do I try to help others understand The Program and Twelve Steps? Do I carry the message by example?

Today I Pray
I ask God's blessing for the group, which has shown me so much about myself that I was not willing to face on my own. May I have the courage to be confronted and to confront, not only to be honest for honesty's sake - which may be reason enough - but to allow myself and the others in the group to grow in self-knowledge.

Today I Will Remember
We are mirrors of each other.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 22, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Twenty-Four Hours a Day
Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2014

AA Thought for the Day
Second, I am content to face the rest of my life without alcohol. I have made the great decision once and for all. I have surrendered as gracefully as possible to the inevitable. I hope I have no more reservations. I hope that nothing can happen to me now that would justify my taking a drink. No death of a dear one. No great calamity in any area of my life should justify me in drinking. Even if I were on some desert isle, far from the rest of the world but not far from God, should I ever feel it right to drink. For me, alcohol is out - period. I will always be safe unless I take that first drink.

Am I fully resigned to this fact?

Meditation for the Day
Day by day, we should slowly build up an unshakable faith in a Higher Power and in that Power's ability to give us all the help we need. By having these quiet times each morning, we start each day with a renewing of our faith, until it becomes almost a part of us and is a strong habit. We should keep furnishing the quiet places of our souls with all the furniture of faith. We should try to fill our thoughts each day with all that is harmonious and good, beautiful and enduring.

Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may build a house in my soul for the spirit of God to dwell in. I pray that I may come at last to an unshakable faith.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 22, 2014 - After the Tears

After the Tears
Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2014

"The classification of alcoholics seems most difficult ...There are, of course, the psychopaths who are emotionally unstable. ...They are always 'going on the wagon for keeps.' They are over-remorseful and make many resolutions, but never a decision.
"There is the type of man who is unwilling to admit that he cannot take a drink. He plans various ways of drinking. He changes his brand or his environment. There is the type who always believes that after being entirely free from alcohol for a period of time he can take a drink without danger. There is the manic-depressive type, who is, perhaps, the least understood by his friends ...
"Then there are types entirely normal in every respect except in the effect alcohol has upon them. They are often able, intelligent, friendly people.
"All these, and many others, have one symptom in common: they cannot start drinking without developing the phenomenon of craving." -Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, "The Doctor's Opinion," p xxviii.

Today, I will not was time figuring out in what "classification" of drinking I fit because, in the end, the common denominator for everyone is that we cannot now or ever drink responsibly. If I accept that absolute truth, I have surrendered to Step One and can begin the work toward recovery; if I have not accepted it, I cannot set out on the journey toward sobriety because I have not admitted my powerlessness over alcohol. And if the opinion of the doctor quoted here is on the mark - that drinking is the trigger to the "phenomenon of craving" - the solution to quenching the craving is simple: don't drink. That's keeping it simple! And our common journey continues. After the tears. - Chris M., 2014

Oct. 21, 2014 - After the Tears

After the Tears
Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2014

Today, I can extend gratitude but pull back on taking pride on the day that greeted me sober and saw me through doing what is expected of me - expected of the Program, expected of the responsibilities to sobriety, and expected of myself. I need not be bogged down with anything from my drinking past - shame, remorse, regret, grandiosity, egoism, anger, depression, or anything else that I could find to keep myself in the gutter. Today, if I awakened sober and proceed through the day doing what is expected of me and doing it with integrity and ethics and then go to sleep remembering all that I said and did, then today will be good. I can be grateful for that seemingly simple achievement and, today, it is enough. And our common journey continues. After the tears. - Chris M., 2014

Oct. 21, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Twenty-Four Hours a Day
Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2014

AA Thought for the Day
Now that we have considered the obligations of real, working members of AA, let us examine what the rewards are that have come to us as a result of our new way of living. First, I understand myself more than I ever did before. I have learned what was the matter with me and I know now a lot of what makes me tick. I will never be alone again. I am just one of many who have the illness of alcoholism and one of many who have learned what to do about it. I am not an odd fish or a square peg in a round hole. I seem to have found my right place in the world.

Am I beginning to understand myself?

Meditation for the Day
"Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If any man hear my voice and open the door, I will come in to him and will remain with him and him with me." The knocking of God's spirit, asking to come into your life, is due to no merit of yours, though it is in response to the longing of your heart. Keep a listening ear, an ear bent to catch the sound of the gentle knocking at the door of your heart by the spirit of God. Then open the door of your heart and let God's spirit come in.

Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may let God's spirit come into my heart. I pray that it may fill me with an abiding peace.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 21, 2014 - A Day at a Time

A Day at a Time
Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2014

Reflection for the Day
There's a world of difference between the idea of self-love and love of self. Self-love is a reflection of an inflated ego, around which - in our distorted view of our own self-importance - everything must revolve. Self-love is the breeding ground for hostility, arrogance and a host of other character defects which blind us to any point of view but our own. Love of self, in contrast, is an appreciation of our dignity and value as human beings. Love of self is an expression of self-realization, from which springs humility.

Do I believe that I can love others best when I have gained love of self?

Today I Pray
May God, who loves me, teach me to love myself. May I notice that the most arrogant and officious humans are not so completely sure of themselves, after all. Instead, they are apt to have a painfully low self-image, an insecurity which they cloak in pomp and princely trappings. May God show me that when I can like myself, I am duly crediting Him, since every living thing is a work of God.

Today I Will Remember
I will try to like myself.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 21, 2014 - The Eye Opener

The Eye Opener
Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2014

One day, not too long ago, you lost everything in the world you held dear, then a man sat down with you and he gave you friendship, understanding, faith, hope, courage and opportunity. Have you ever realized the great value of what this man gave you? These were the tools with which you made a new and better life.

Someone did this for you, so "go and do thou likewise."

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 20, 2014 - The Eye Opener

The Eye Opener
Monday, Oct. 20, 2014

For a person who knew almost everything just a few years back and who now knows more than he did then, it is indeed strange to have had that consciousness of just beginning to learn the most elementary facts of living.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 20, 2014 - A Day at a Time

A Day at a Time
Monday, Oct. 20, 2014

Reflection for the Day
Before I admitted my powerlessness over alcohol and other chemicals, I had as much self-worth as a "peeled zero." I came into The Program as a nobody who desperately wanted to be a somebody. In retrospect, my self-esteem was shredded, seemingly beyond repair. Gradually, The Program has enabled me to achieve an ever-stronger sense of self-worth. I've come to accept myself, realizing that I'm not so bad as I had always supposed myself to be.

Am I learning that my self-worth is not dependent on the approval of others, but instead is truly an "inside job?"

Today I Pray
When I am feeling down and worthless, may my Higher Power and my friends in the group help me see that, although I was "fallen," I was not "cast down." However sick I might have been in my worst days, with all the self-esteem of an earth worm, may I know that I still had the power of choice. And I chose to do something about myself. May that good choice be the basis of my reactivated self-worth.

Today I Will Remember
I will not kick myself when I'm down.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 20, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Twenty-Four Hours a Day
Monday, Oct. 20, 2014

AA Thought for the Day
For the past few weeks, we have been asking ourselves some searching questions. We have not been able to answer them all as we would like. But on the right answers to these questions will depend the usefulness and effectiveness of our lives and to some extent the usefulness and effectiveness of the whole AA movement. It all boils down to this: I owe a deep debt to AA and to the grace of God. Am I going to do all I can to repay that debt? Let us search our souls, make our decisions and act accordingly. Any real success we have in life will depend on that. Now is the time to put our conclusions into effect.

What am I going to do about it?

Meditation for the Day
"Our Lord and our God, be it done unto us according to Thy will." Simple acceptance of God's will in whatever happens is the key to abundant living. We must continue to pray. "Not my will but Thy will be done." It may not turn out the way you want it to, but it will be the best way in the long run, because it is God's way. If you decide to accept whatever happens as God's will for yourself, whatever it may be, your burdens will be lighter. Try to see in all things some fulfillment of the Divine Intent.

Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may see the working out of God's will in my life. I pray that I may be content with whatever He wills for me.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 20, 2014 - After the Tears

After the Tears
Monday, Oct. 20, 2014

Today, I will step outside myself if I have retreated inside because of some problem or emotion that I haven't confronted and will extend my hand to someone else in need. Service to others is a fundamental and integral component of the Program and, by seeking out and offering someone who needs my help, I may understand that my own burden is not as heavy as another person's. To permit some problem to hold me hostage within myself is empowering that problem and forcing me to ignore the needs of someone else. On a less altruistic level, the weight of another person's burdens may humble me enough to realize that my own burdens may not be as heavy as I think. Today, I step outside myself and offer my help to someone who needs and wants it. And our common journey continues. After the tears. - Chris M., 2014

Oct. 19, 2014 - After the Tears

After the Tears
Sunday, Oct. 19, 2014

Today, if alcohol is "cunning and baffling," its end product - alcoholism - is mysterious because it took the experience of turning alcoholic to guide me to a Program to begin my physical, spiritual and emotional healing. And without going through the deepest of gutters, the darkest of nights and the sickest of physical and emotional conditions, I may never have emerged from that life of being half-dead and half-alive to being, now, fully alive. In a bizarre osmosis, if I cannot be grateful, I must at least not deny, reject or forget those days of my drinking because they brought me to a place where a healing can begin. Today, I respect and can almost be grateful for the experience of alcoholism because it has brought me to where I am - here. And our common journey continues. After the tears. - Chris M., 2014

Oct. 19, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Twenty-Four Hours a Day
Sunday, Oct. 19, 2014

AA Thought for the Day
Do I realize that I do not know how much time I have left? It may be later than I think. Am I going to do the things that I know I should do before my time runs out? By the way, what is my purpose for the rest of my life? Do I realize all I have to make up for in my past wasted life? Do I know that I am living on borrowed time and that I would not have even this much time left without AA and the grace of God?

Am I going to make what time I have left count for AA?

Meditation for the Day
We can believe that somehow the cry of the human soul is never unheard by God. It may be that God hears the cry, even if we fail to notice God's response to it. The human cry for help must always evoke a response of some sort from God. It may be that our failure to discern properly keeps us unaware of the response. But one thing we can believe is that the grace of God is always available for every human being who sincerely calls for help. Many changed lives are living proofs of this fact.

Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may trust God to answer my prayer as He sees fit. I pray that I may be content with whatever form that answer may take.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 19, 2014 - A Day at a Time

A Day at a Time
Sunday, Oct. 19, 2014

Reflection for the Day
There are countless ways by which my progress and growth in The Program can be measured. One of the most important is my awareness that I'm no longer compelled, almost obsessively, to go around judging everything and everybody. My only business today is to work on changing myself, rather than other people, places and things. In its own way, the obsession of being forever judgmental was as burdensome to me as the obsession of my addiction; I'm grateful that both weights have been lifted from my shoulders.

When I become judgmental, will I remind myself that I'm trespassing on God's territory?

Today I Pray
Forgive me my trespasses, when I have become the self-proclaimed judge-and-jury of my peers. By being judgmental, I have trespassed on the rights of others to judge themselves - and on the rights of God in the Highest Court of all. May I throw away all my judgmental tools - my own yardstick and measuring tapes, my own comparisons, my unreachable standards - and accept each person as an individual beyond compare.

Today I Will Remember
Throw away old tapes - especially measuring tapes.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 19, 2014 - The Eye Opener

The Eye Opener
Sunday, Oct. 19, 2014

Bad luck is not often just a series of unhappy events that just happened. Our bad luck is usually the result of our ignorance, carelessness or indifference.

Our experience with bad luck should make us more careful and then good luck can be expected to follow in consequence.

It was your bad luck that brought you to AA; it was your good luck that you profited by it.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 18, 2014 - After the Tears

After the Tears
Saturday, Oct. 18, 2014

Today, I will not waste valuable time that should be spent on progressing in sobriety to fight any urge for "just one" drink: I already know the deception of "just one." AA has armed me with the Steps to dodge the bullet of temptation, and personal experience shows time and again the consequences if I give in. In the end, the temptation to drink "just one" is a simple choice, and that choice like any other has consequences - and I alone will be responsible to those consequences. They have taken too much from me already. Thus, the choice is simple: DON'T DRINK. Today, I don't have time to deal with the anguish of temptation or wondering if I can get away with "just one." I can't. Maybe more significantly, I don't want to. Case closed. Today, I'll focus my emotional energy on something more productive, like progressing in sobriety. And our common journey continues. After the tears. - Chris M., 2014

Oct. 18, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day

Twenty-Four Hours a Day
Saturday, Oct. 18, 2014

AA Thought for the Day
Have I got over most of my sensitiveness, my feelings which are too easily hurt and my just plain laziness and self-satisfaction? Am I willing to go all out for AA at no matter what cost to my precious self? Is my own comfort more important to me than doing the things that need to be done? Have I got to the point where what happens to me is not so important. Can I face up to things that are embarrassing or uncomfortable if they are the right things to do for the good of AA? Have I given AA just a small piece of myself?

Am I willing to give all of myself whenever necessary?

Meditation for the Day
Not until you have failed can you learn true humility. Humility arises from a deep sense of gratitude to God for giving you the strength to rise above past failures. Humility is not inconsistent with self-respect. The true person has self-respect and the respect of others and yet is humble. The humble person is tolerant of others' failings, and does not have a critical attitude toward the foibles of others. Humble people are hard on themselves and easy on others.

Prayer for the Day
I pray that I may be truly humble and yet have self-respect. I pray that I may see the good in myself as well as the bad.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 18, 2014 - A Day at a Time

A Day at a Time
Saturday, Oct. 18, 2014

Reflection for the Day
Not in my wildest dreams could I have imagined the rewards that would be mine when I first contemplated turning my life and will over to the care of God as I understand Him. Now I can rejoice in the blessing of my own recovery, as well as the recoveries of countless others who have found hope and a new way of life in The Program. After all the years of waste and terror, I realize today that God has always been on my side and at my side.

Isn't my clearer understanding of God's will one of the best things that has happened to me?

Today I Pray
May I be thankful for the blessed contrast between the way my life used to be (Part I) and the way it is now (Part II). In Part I, I was the practicing addict, adrift among my fears and delusions. In Part II, I am the recovering addict, rediscovering my emotions, accepting my responsibilities, learning what the real world has to offer, growing close to my Higher Power. Without the contrast, I could never feel the joy I know today or sense the peaceful nearness of my Higher Power.

Today I Will Remember
I am grateful for such contrast.

Hazelden Foundation

Oct. 18, 2014 - The Eye Opener

The Eye Opener
Saturday, Oct. 18, 2014

The life of the alcoholic is very similar to a jigsaw puzzle. In our days of drinking, the whole of life appeared as simply a jumbled mass of unrelated pieces, impossible to unscramble.

In AA, someone gave us the cornerpiece and, from this, we slowly and laboriously found one piece after another. Each piece that we fitted in made it easier to find the next piece.

First, we found understanding, then hope, then determination, then sobriety, then unselfishness, then love, then faith and finally God.

All the pieces are in place finally, the picture makes sense - and it is beautiful to behold.

Hazelden Foundation

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Oct. 22, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 22nd, 2014
Oct. 22, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 22nd, 2014
Oct. 22, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 22nd, 2014
Oct. 22, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 22nd, 2014
Oct. 21, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 21st, 2014
Oct. 21, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 21st, 2014
Oct. 21, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 21st, 2014
Oct. 21, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 21st, 2014
Oct. 20, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 20th, 2014
Oct. 20, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 20th, 2014
Oct. 20, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 20th, 2014
Oct. 20, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 20th, 2014
Oct. 19, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 19th, 2014
Oct. 19, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 19th, 2014
Oct. 19, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 19th, 2014
Oct. 19, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 19th, 2014
Oct. 18, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 18th, 2014
Oct. 18, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 18th, 2014
Oct. 18, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 18th, 2014
Oct. 18, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 18th, 2014
Oct. 17, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 17th, 2014
Oct. 17, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 17th, 2014
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Oct. 17, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 17th, 2014
Oct. 16, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 16th, 2014
Oct. 16, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 16th, 2014
Oct. 16, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 16th, 2014
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Oct. 15, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 15th, 2014
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Oct. 15, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 15th, 2014
Oct. 14, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 14th, 2014
Oct. 14, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 14th, 2014
Oct. 14, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 14th, 2014
Oct. 14, 2014 - Twenty-Four Hours a Day, posted October 14th, 2014
Oct. 13, 2014 - The Eye Opener, posted October 13th, 2014
Oct. 13, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 13th, 2014
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Oct. 13, 2014 - A Day at a Time, posted October 13th, 2014
Oct. 12, 2014 - After the Tears, posted October 12th, 2014
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